The natural sequence of an unnatural beginning

New post.. after 2 weeks of haitus? haha

2009-08-06T00:46:00.000-07:00

I've been either lazy or just taking some unnecessary R&R that I couldn't even bother to update this blog. Seriously, everything's pretty busy with the birthday planning, working, taking care of things for the birthday, working some more and taking care of my puppies. Aside from that form of stress, summer's been good although there was a week where it was scorching hot that I couldn't wait for winter and now it's a little bit cool which I think suits BC better (not too hot, not too cold). Everything is dull around here and not much excitement so I didn't find any reason to blog about things that aren't even worth talking about. Since I didn't feel like neglecting this thing completely, I decided writing about dull things are better than leaving a space stranded and empty. Last week, I finally received a package with some of my baby pictures attached and looking at it just makes me feel a little nostalgic. I sometimes wish that I was at that age but being at this age is pretty aamzing nonetheless. SO.. not much news here.. so I'll be going now.. bye!

Mackie world, world Mackie!

2009-07-17T21:56:00.003-07:00

Here's a new addition and Beauty's playmate! Just got him today and he's so cute. He's a havanese/yorkie. Really really cute and an amazing puppy.

p. slughorn: harry? h.p: SIR?!

2009-07-16T23:29:00.000-07:00

I watched Harry Potter yesterday and I must say it was frickin' amazing. No words can describe it. Some people doesn't seem to agree with me but their opinions will not cloud my judgement about the movie overall. I thought it was very well done althought there were some rough patches that could've been made smoother but the comedy aspect of it and still mainting the struggles of everyone, in my opinion, compensated for it. It was really good and I can't wait for the DVD to come out and watch it incessantly. Aside from that, I have to take Tea to her vet appt. and get my eyes checked to see if I'm more blind than I was before. Before I forget to write this down, I also went swimming at Sungod and it was so much fun. Yesterday was the happiest day of my summer so far and I'm sure I'll have more happy times. For example, today was a happy day cause I got a blizzard from DQ. Anyway, I think I need to continue reading Jane Eyre before the summer ends. Seriously, I don't even know how I'll continue it because the book is romantic but disturbing at the same time. Somehow I know that I will finish it because I've been wanting to read this book since forever. Ahhh.. I don't know when I'm working again since they haven't called me yet.. maybe this weekend or next week they'll call me because I know they'll be pretty busy next week. SOO, I guess this is it. See yah lates.

such a nightmare..but oh so wonderful.

2009-07-12T22:31:00.000-07:00

Guess what? I work now! Thank god for that.. but I never knew that it would require me to be up on my feet all the time. However, the work is fairly easy.. but cleaning up is a bitch. I have work again tomorrow and I think that's it for the rest of the week although I'm not really sure. My legs feel like jello, my feet kills and I have never felt so awkward before since this is my first job..ever. No, if you think I work at Mcdonalds then you're wrong. I work somewhere but I won't disclose where I'd rather keep that part private. I am so tired right now and I just want to soak my feet in lukewarm water! HP comes out in a few days..YAY!!!!! So happy right now!! Hehehe :) See you all soon!

Here it is!

2009-07-07T01:26:00.000-07:00

This is the piercing I got done today (or rather yesterday since it's pass midnight) which I'm very happy with. It didn't hurt like I anticipated it to be. The process was very quick although the lady took her time so I grew more anxious about it. However, I am very happy with the results and I'm really glad I finally got it done since I have been adamant about getting this done since last year but didn't find time or was too nervous to do it.

updaaaaate

2009-07-07T01:13:00.000-07:00

I know I haven't been writing lately because well there is nothing to write about except for today. I finally got my ear pierced, the top part and I must say it's pretty amazing. It hurt but I have a good tolerance for pain so with that said and done, I'm more than happy with the results. In addition to that, I've been told that I am getting a call tomorrow regarding a job interview that I have been waiting for and I think I'll get it. It won't be a stressful kind of environment which I'm happy about and I'll be interacting with different types of people when I work. Anyway, summer's been a drag so far and there is really nothing exciting going on with me, except for the fact that my dog scratched me today >=[. She's getting rowdy and just has lots of energy..but she also needs her nails trimmed. I hope that by the end of this summer something profound and eventful happens; at least something worthy to brag about on the first day of school (haha). As of right now, my days are spent watching teevee, going on FB and whatever else, walking my dog (although I haven't been doing that lately), eating and eating some more. Boring eh? (Damn it, even this post is boring). Well, I'll end it here since my babling isn't doing much to ease the boredom. I'll post a picture of my new piercing later. Adios. PS. MAY I REMIND YOU ALL THAT HARRY POTTER IS COMING OUT NEXT WEEK? EXACTLY ONE WEEK FROM TODAY. 7 DAYS! THAT'S 7 DAYS!! :):)

Illness, shmillness.

2009-06-27T21:53:00.000-07:00

Summer doesn't feel like summer. School doesn't feel like school. Some things aren't what they seem to be or potray themselves to be they're just merely an illusion that make you think that they are real. School has become a burden to some, not a fun place for learning or whatever. Life just keeps throwing shit in your face and hope to God (if there is a God, I doubt there is one) that your faith in him will guide you out of it. You live and you die, whether by accident or intentional. For the past 3-4 years, 4 deaths have happened in my famly; all because of cancer. Lung cancer, breast cancer, luekemia and ovarian cancer; that shiz is lethal. I think it'll take a long time to truly find a cure for it. My uncle died within one month of learning he has luekemia. My grandpa is fortunate to live longer than expected and see Canada where his children reside and call home. Others are just not so fortunate and live an unfulfilling last days. My mom has ovarian cyst which may or may not be cancerous. See, this is God's gift to my family. God, whoever he is, doesn't seem to give us a break. This is why I doubt him because no matter how much we ask for miracles, no matter how much we pray at night or no matter how much we cry, we don't see signs from him that he's here and guiding us. I've lost faith in my religion because I don't believe in it anymore and I don't trust it anymore. I still go to church simply because my parents get upset if I don't, so I go to please them not to please God or Jesus. My family, no matter how many trials they go through in life, still worship him but I can't bring myself to anymore. I've asked angels, saints, Jesus himself and God to finally give my family a chance to recover. One after one another my family is dropping off from the face of the Earth. One by one, their lives are being claimed and their souls be released from their sanctuaries. This is what we fear for the most; that one day we will find this illness, which has plagued my family for the past 5-6 years, in me, my mom, my sisters, my brother etc. and slowly wipe each one of us. I'm not ready and I don't know what I would do if I get cancer. I've seen my aunts, my uncle and my grandpa suffer through all this and they cling to whatever is left of their energy to stay a little longer but to no avail. I don't want to suffer that, I sure as hell don't want my mom or my sisters or whoever close to me to suffer that sort of pain. I'd rather get killed by a heart attack just not cancer. I worry about that shiz everytime I think of it and hope that I don't ever get it. I'm sure there's a probability that I will or maybe not. Just not now or not ever.

Hi!

2009-06-23T22:40:00.000-07:00

Hi all! I haven't been writing in a while because I just didn't have anything interesting to talk about and I still don't but I don't want to continue neglecting my blog. Anyway, summer is here! Nothing special has happened so far and I guess I'm trying to start my hibernation attemp. It might not be a good idea anyway since I will be kept busy with preparations for whatever I need to prepare for. HOLY GEEZUS, Harry Potter is coming out in 23 days! I cannot wait.. I think I'm more excited about that than my birthday. Transformers 2 is also coming out but it will be tomorrow. I'm planning on seeing it maybe this Friday with a couple of friends. My dog is still with me.. thank god! She's really stubborn right now because she's so scared of cars and doesn't want to walk further than the driveway. I have to give her a bath tomorrow since she smells even though I gave her a bathe her yesterday. I'll leave here.. since I have nothing further to say. Goodnight!

Tomorrow, tomorrow, I'll love you, tomorrow..

2009-06-14T23:54:00.000-07:00

So I went to Seattle and it was pretty good! I did some shopping and I got dresses that I need for my birthday. I can't wait to travel again somewhere new and fun..hehe. One wonderful thing happened to me which is I got a puppy! Her name is Tea, she's very sweet yet a little bit stubborn. She's so adorable and cute and whiny but I'm falling in love with her all the same. However, I did hit a little snag. My parents, who were on board about having a dog at home are now doubting it. My dad is thinking of giving it back to the owners because of her smell. I mean seriously? wtf? because of a dog smell? All dogs smell, whether they're big or small. She's a lot to handle right now that's for sure but I dont know if I can give her up you know? I've only had her for not even 7 days and I'm completely smitten. She's great and she just needs a little bit of discipline and she's gonna be wonderful! I don't know, maybe my dad is right. Maybe we aren't ready for a dog yet, especially now. But she's really cute though ahahaha :) One more exam to go and I am done. After Friday, Summer for me will finally start!! Awesome right? :)

Torn..

2009-06-08T22:05:00.001-07:00

Mexico or Vegas or have my birthday at a hall? Seriously, I really don't know. I would love to go to Mexico or Vegas.. we'll see. I still need to talk to my parents and what they want.. :(

ps. No pics today, I ran out. I need to go look and download some others.

Sigh of relief

2009-06-07T22:39:00.000-07:00

I am so glad and so relieved that I finally finished my Socials essay as well as Math. I swear that at the end of this week, my brain will be turning into mush. Everything is so stressful right now and so blah. I think I've highlighted the stress I'm under previously. It is almost impossible to think of anything else right now besides "Okay, study hard, you need to do good in everything and make sure not to fuck up right now!!" Anyway, I will be sleepin soon because I need to wake up early tomorrow morning and pay a teacher a visit so she can explain to me what the hell circle geometry is. I can't wait for this week to be over as well as next week. Free ice cream for everyone if I pass my exams!! :)

Happy Birthday

2009-06-06T23:40:00.001-07:00

I would like to wish my little sister Kaileen a very HAPPY BIRHTDAY! I love you so much and I hope you have a fun filled day today. I'm sorry that I'm not with you to celebrate it but hopefully next year you'll be with me to celebrate my birthday! Take care of yourself and I love you! :)

PS, I know it's only June 6th here but its June 7th in the Philippines right now, so don't worry about it Kai.. haha.

School, school, school.

2009-06-05T19:22:00.000-07:00

So starting Monday, everything is going to be so hectic with reviews, tests, and whatever else teachers do to make students stressed out and totally become out of whack because of all these things we have to worry about. After all the tests and provincials and whatever else, I will seriously hibernate and just just shut off my brain from all these academic stuff, HAHAHAHAH. Summer is coming whoot.. plus summer job :( I think it would be great!! And then my birthday!! 18!! Wow, that feels weird saying that I'm turning 18. Then next thing you know, I'll be saying I'm turning 30 which will become such a huge huge step like everyone else. Anyway, today is Friday and time to relax.. ZzZzZ. ;)

Summer Lovin'

2009-06-02T20:59:00.000-07:00

Next Wednesday is my last day of grade 11. Wow, that is just something that amazes me so much right now. One more year and I am going into university and become the person I've always wanted to be. Next year is going to be hectic and stressful because of the fact that everyone is going to be stressing over scholarships and deadlines for college submissions which scares me. In other news, I think my summer this year is gonna be pretty amazing. I will be 18 and it feels amazing knowing I am so close to finally getting out of my adolescence and the teenage years although being a teenager is amazing but nothing compares to being 20 and over. The only stress factors I have right now are teachers cramming every last minute details we need to know and preparing for the finals or provincials. My English teacher is literally making us do at least an essay a day to better prepare ourselves with the Provincials and everything. Then there is also my Socials teacher just handing us worksheets after worksheets but it doesn't bother me that much since I like Socials anyway. You know, I think my mind is really set on what I want to be. I can't wait for next year and the many years that will come my way! Environmental club next year? I think it will be cool to join that with the added bonus of volunteer experience :) Anyway, see yah lates.

Touchy touch

2009-05-29T16:43:00.000-07:00

I got an Ipod Touch today which is a surprise since it never occured to me that my dad would actually buy me one. I pointed it out to him a couple weeks ago then upon entering the store, he takes me to the Ipod section and tells me "So, that's the one you liked right?". Pretty frickin' stocked about it! Currently downlading tracks for tap tap and going to be playing it later. In other news, I am completely overwhelmed. I have math and socials that I need to finish by Monday which is almost virtually impossible; however, I need to finish it in order to get a good mark and all. Drag me to hell looks pretty epic maybe I'll hit up the theaters and watch it. :) Have a happy friday everyone!!

Melancholy Green

2009-05-29T00:26:00.000-07:00

This is an excerpt from a short story I read on the net. I think it reflects on how I feel right now about love and anything associated with it.

" I’m sad every morning because in my dreams you’re still with me. And when I wake I lose you again. I want to sleep forever so that you will always be mine. "

Sheer panic..

2009-05-28T17:24:00.000-07:00

Today during lunch a wave of panic came over me. In BC, when you get your Novice drivers license you are only allowed to have 1 passenger who is not your immediate family; however, when you are allowed to have your immediate family members with you. For example, if you have a 5 seater, you can fill up all seats with your parents + your cousins or siblings. Anyway, my best friend and I went out for lunch and my other friend decided to come with us. The bad thing is, we have a school cop that is always present, trying to catch those who have more than 1 passenger. In my school there is a catwalk behind it and I told my friend to wait for me there so I can pick up. Unknowingly, the lady cop decided to come around in the back to see if there's anyone picking up their friends from there. It just so happens that I was still parked. I panicked and I told my friend to duck, which she did. Then I just kept driving, trying to pretend that there's no one in my car. When I was far enough from the cop, I then told my friend to get out of my car and just hide or pretend that she's just walking around like a regular citizen. The cop was behind me when I was at a 4-way stop and I got very scared. Thankfully she didn't pull me over or anything. I was so scared that my leg was literally shaking. SOO, lesson learned. I won't attempt that ever again (during lunch times anyway). In other news, it's the long weekend. I have lots of homework though.. sigh. I think it should be fun. The day is nice and it's pretty warm! 2 more weeks till school ends too. I am so excited! :):)

Greek food

2009-05-27T18:39:00.000-07:00

My current favorite as of today is Greek! Greek food are the gods of all cuisine. Japanese comes second and of course Filipino food. But today, let's just focus on the incredibly awesome Greek cuisine. Lamb souvlaki = yum. The tzatziki sauce = double yum. The rice ? = orgasm in my mouth. Anyway, it just astounds me that there are so many exotic foods out there that are so unique on its own but at the same time.. still maintain that certain flavor everyone loves. Right now I am bloated and satisfied with my dinner. Guess what it is? Greek! Ahahaha. In other news, I have this plan for myself that in 2 years, I will plan a trip of my own. What I was planning was, on my way to Philippines for a summer vacation, I'll stop in South Korea for one week then spend 1 week travelling other parts of the Philippines. For the last 2 weeks of my vacation, I'll spend it with my family. I think it'll be fun! I need to save up and plan it really well. I'm excited! Yay :)

One more year..

2009-05-26T20:06:00.000-07:00

Next year is my graduating year. Next year will bring a close to a chapter of my life that will catapult me to reality and to a higher degree of responsibility. Next year, I will leave my cocoon and become part of civilization where I would interact with people who are much more mature and way more experienced in life that I am. All these things scare the living shit out of me. The fact that I will have to open my eyes and slowly accept that growing up is part of nature. I have to wrap my mind around all these things and show the world what I am capable of. It scares me that I would have to be more assertive and become a woman. I would have to leave my "girl" image and become the person that I've always admired from other people. I am a caterpillar that is waiting to become a butterfly. :)